I wrote a story post series 2 that proposed that John came to realize how he felt about Sherlock after Sherlock was apparently dead. While fanfiction can definitely be a meta argument of a kind, that one in particular isn’t one I would ever make.
I’m pretty convinced that John is already clear about his feelings for Sherlock through most of series 2. If Sherlock hadn’t taken a flying leap at the end, I would have written a story about John’s emotional journey towards accepting his feelings for Sherlock and set it entirely inside the earliest parts of A Scandal in Belgravia, which is where I think most of that internal action probably happened.
I think John is well aware of how he feels about Sherlock. But he won’t admit to it out loud. That’s what he won’t say to his therapist, isn’t it? And it’s what he doesn’t say at Sherlock’s grave. It doesn’t say it to Sherlock’s face in the train in The Empty Hearse either, which was another logical place to say it. It seems as if it’s something John physically can’t say.
So does he ever tell Mary?
God, I love this.
Didn’t Mary tell Sherlock at the wedding that John doesn’t talk about Sherlock, he talks about Sholto? So maybe John doesn’t talk about Sherlock to her too much. But it’s kind of obvious, isn’t it? John doesn’t need to say what he’s really thinking about Sherlock for people to be able to know what he isn’t saying. Really, you would only have to read his blog and then watch how he grieves.
And Mary was reading his blog back to him in order to convince him to go back to Sherlock. 😀
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