There is so much going on in that last gif. I can’t even list the number of emotions and thoughts that are flickering across his face but somewhere in there is a little bit of despair. He’s finally getting his life back on track and now the balance is upset again. And it should be a happy moment, but it’s more painful than anything because he doesn’t trust easily and Sherlock, the one person who should know better, is reinforcing why. The sad thing is, even once they get settled and Sherlock’s back for good, things still go off the rails once he finds out about Mary. How has this man not completely fallen apart yet? I think it’s coming. I think series 4 is going to hurt most of all because I think everything that’s bubbling under the surface in that third gif is going to come rushing out and none of them are going to be the same once it does.
He looks so hurt here. It really sort of upset me that after John gave Sherlock that look, they went on to turn their reunion into a comedic scene. How can you laugh when somebody’s got that much pain in them?
I was talking with somebody last night and realized how unhappy John is throughout S3. Like, in S2 he was always so happy, even when he was ticked off or feeling hurt or terrified. In S3, even when he’s at his happiest, there’s always something tensed and braced about him, like he’s always waiting for something to happen or for a blow to fall.
And sadder still is that he’s right.
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