john watson is ace, pass it on.
I’d fight you because I don’t see him this way canonically, except I’m too into the headcanon.
Ace!John in his early 20s looking at people and thinking they’re pretty and thinking he’s into them, and trying but never quite sure why things seem to stop working for him when they get to the part about actually sleeping together.
Ace!John imagining himself having children and kind of liking the idea, but getting an emotional side-eye when he imagines the part about a wife and sex and all that.
Ace!John content to snuggle and kiss for hours—and at first his girlfriends think he’s amazing and sensitive but then they begin to get a bit annoyed when he never seems inclined to go past that.
Ace!John feeling forever lonely as hell through his early 30s, thinking that maybe there’s just nobody out there for him, or maybe he’s just weird and fucked up and destined to be alone.
Ace!John in the military, faking it to fit in with his raucous military bros but getting a bit skeeved and exhausted after a while when they’re deployed and the guys all seem inclined to talk about explicit sexual things.
Ace!John able to flirt with the best of them, but becoming infamous for having zero clue when somebody’s flirting with him unless they’re really obvious about it.
Ace!John assuming things never click for him because he just hasn’t met ‘the right one’ yet.
Ace!John determined to be ‘normal’ and having girlfriends (and maybe boyfriends?) and constantly struggling inside with the bit of him that wants to shy away when they get too physical or start talking about attraction or all those things he just doesn’t feel.
Ace!John trying his fucking hardest to find ways to get turned on with his dates so that he can have sex with them. Trying to parley physical beauty into attraction, trying to get turned on by their personalities or minds, trying to steam up some completely unrelated fantasies in his mind so that at least he can get an erection and get some physical pleasure even though touching their body is about as exciting as sitting on a sofa. Like, they’re fine, there’s nothing wrong with them, it’s just not anything like all this stuff about ‘sparks’ or ‘heat’ or ‘craving’ everybody always goes on about.
Ace!John, when he is able to actually perform, finding the pleasure of his partner the most beautiful thing in the world and having absolutely no interest in getting off himself but wanting to give them like 40 orgasms and the time of their damned lives because it’s just such joy to make someone else so happy and fulfilled, to be able to touch them on such an emotional level. And gaining a reputation as ‘Three Continents’ Watson because of it.
ace!john meeting sherlock and noting his face, the contours and the angles, unexpected and fascinating and just completely unable to look away.
ace!john slowly falling in love with sherlock and becoming more and more terrified because he can see sherlock falling more and more in love with him.
ace!john marrying mary even though he knows she’s cheating on him because he’s just so relieved that he won’t have to pretend to care.
when sherlock kisses him, ace!john flinching away in terror and when sherlock makes him explain he tries, somehow attempting to tell sherlock that’s it not sherlock’s fault, that it’s john and that he’s sorry and he’ll never be what he wants.
sherlock staring at ace!john with a brightening behind his eyes and saying “oh thank god” because he’s ace too.
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